happy anorexic week

so I had a Truly Shitty Experience, and it was just what I needed to finally get back into it. My throat's sore-I've been throwing up almost everything. It sucks though, cause I'm feeling better now, so it's harder to stick with it. This week, me and my friend aren't eating, but I've sucked so far. I had to eat yesterday, and I couldn't throw up w/o my mom knowing. grrrr but at least I've been exercising. Gonna start running again soon. grrrr! I was doing so well last week. I almost want something bad to happen so I can feel horrible enough that I get sick if I even get near food. But all I can do now is stock up on benedryl so I can go to sleep at 5 so I won't eat.