happy anorexic week

so I had a Truly Shitty Experience, and it was just what I needed to finally get back into it. My throat's sore-I've been throwing up almost everything. It sucks though, cause I'm feeling better now, so it's harder to stick with it. This week, me and my friend aren't eating, but I've sucked so far. I had to eat yesterday, and I couldn't throw up w/o my mom knowing. grrrr but at least I've been exercising. Gonna start running again soon. grrrr! I was doing so well last week. I almost want something bad to happen so I can feel horrible enough that I get sick if I even get near food. But all I can do now is stock up on benedryl so I can go to sleep at 5 so I won't eat.

pain is weakness leaving the body

been so lazy lately, gotta get back like it was eighth grade. miss my other anorexic half-because we make one anorexic girl together, but apart we are only halves. been trying to get back into bulimia, but I'm so scared now I'll get caught-I have with shoplifting and cutting, and I don't wanna get sent to Rockford. feel like shit today, gonna have to dm like crazy tonight. i just wanna be fucking saved, you know?

until then, I'll just stick to whore-ing it up.